I have been praying for inspiration but not yet received any guidance or better ideas. So I am going to keep praying until things get better. I may have to move soon too, because they are saying they need the house back for the new priest whose going to take over while I am being suspended and investigated.

But I don't think I have done anything wrong and it may be that I am right in the eyes of the Lord or it may be that I am not, I don't know because I haven't received the response to my prayers yet. But if I have to give up being a Priest in order to be with Heather then I will. Because I have discovered that love in all sorts is very good and that I can continue to love God in my own way even if I'm not allowed to love God on other people's behalf any more. In either case I'll keep loving Heather and maybe I'll move into her studio with her.

Because I'm not ashamed of it any more. Ever since Kim tied us to the lamppost without our clothes on when she found us together I have known that I am not ashamed of loving Heather and she is not ashamed of loving me (although I was ashamed for all those villagers who saw us before anyone could find a big enough knife to cut away all the knots Kim tied). I am sorry about that, but there was nothing much I could do.

But mostly I am not praying for myself and Heather - I am praying for Kimberley and also for all the villagers and other people who don't live in the village. And in particular there is Fran to pray for - I haven't forgot that because she is still a prisoner and I understand that Kim is threatening her with snakes.

Everything is very sad and it would be so good if the village could be a simple happy place for all of us to live in. But it hasn't been like that this year and I am praying to find out if I am partially or perhaps completely to blame.

I was also hoping that Heather and I could explain that to Kimberley and tell her that we did not blame her for tying us up but I think she is not ready to listen yet because of the things she sprayed us with when we came to her cottage to ask her to let Fran go. I will continue praying and maybe I will be able to do the mass at Christmas but I think I probably won't be. If so, I hope you will all try to be good people for the new Priest.